Summer is a time for rest and relaxation. We work hard for 10 months at school, and summer is the only time we can really relax and unwind, bfore we have to repeat the 10 month process. But have we really thought about the opportunities summer presents. We are away from our friends and mentors for 3 whole months. 3 months is alot of time. Think back to out past summers, 3 months have made us inches even feet taller, 3 months have made our wallets from full to empty, or from empty to full, 3 months have changed boys into men, and girls into women, and that idea my friends is the real meaning for summer. Summer means change. It gives us the time to get away from the pressures of peers and mentors, and it allow us the ability to find ourselves, redefine our purposes, and mature into the people we will be for the rest of our lives.
Now here come my reflection. Who do i want to be when I grow up? I'll tell the truth. I've been spoiled and babied all my life. My mom made sure I had everything I needed, sometimes everything I wanted, but she gave me the opportunity to be independent, slowly loosening her lovegrip called motherhood, but she has never truly let go. and thats where this year comes in. Even though I live hella close to home, being away from her has changed me. I no longer appreciate the love grip, the constant location calls, room barges, and commands she puts on me. Rather I prefer to be in my own space, do things on my own time, and my own way. Not to say I dont love her, because I love her with all my heart, but I like my independence, and own space, and in 10 years she wont be there to do all these things, so she needs to start practicing not doing them.
Now here comes my goals. Who am I becoming? Being away from home has been an experience. I have no one to report to, no one who tells me what to do, and no one to judge or reprimand me. But all this freedom can be a danger if not focused productively. Instead of hanging out all the time, why cant I focus some of my time on my , or on a job? Thats precisely what i have realized. Ive had my fun being a child this year. Now focusing on the theme of change, I have dedicated this summer to tranforming Nate the Fun guy, to Nate the grown man. I have already taken some steps in the process, and the summer is long, so i hope i stick to it, but i feel like the experience and the lessons i learn this summer will help me grow up. The real world is hard, and ive grown up in a bubble. Now is my time to start venturing into my own space, and really seeing where my strengths and weaknesses are. Anther thing I've been trying to change within myself are the childish bad habits I have. I'm a really friendly guy. I like to smile and laugh, but lately ive been feeling like my personality sometimes comes off too strong. This summer one of my focuses is picking and choosing instances where i let my personality shine, and stepping off. One of my problems is I treat everyone with the same friendly attitude that needs to be focused into a more controlled one.
Anyways I'm done reflecting. I'm hungry and basketball today killed me. I love it :)
Heres a picture i thought was funny
